Live It, Live It Good

Okay blogging world, here I am once more.

I haven't written anything in quite a while, and though I've thought about various things to post here, I'm just too afraid they're not... Right? I don't know. But I guess they don't have to be, right?

Maybe I wanted this to be some interesting look into certain parts of my life, only show the good and fun things.

But you know what? Screw that. I'll write what I want to write. Boom.


Now I bet you're wondering what cool thing comes next. Well, I hate to disappoint you, so maybe you should go read Justin Bieber's blog instead.

My life as of late has been hectic, to say the least. After I moved to Bellevue, WA, I felt like life was super slow, I had nothing to do but watch 3 little boys everyday, and I kind of felt useless. Now, everything is different. My days seem to be jam-packed with work at Evolution Fresh, nannying those 3 boys after school, leading Young Life, and sleeping. The days go by so quickly, and frankly it's sort of depressing.

Look, I know some people thrive on busyness, they want to feel important or wanted or whatever, and I get that. It's nice to be needed in different places all the time. I definitely used to feel that way, like everyone wanted a piece of me and I'm sure my pride was just bubbling over. But now, I feel like God is giggling, saying something like, "Told you so," and waiting for me to ask for ways to slow down.

Sometimes it feels like you can't really live when you're living. Does that make sense? I want to enjoy things, but it feels like I'm so busy that I only get to watch people enjoy God's creation.

I don't want to live like that.


There's been talk from one of my friends up here about moving about an hour south of Bellevue recently, and it's led me to think about what I might do if she were to move. The thought of moving there with her definitely crossed my mind; and so did moving back to Springfield, maybe to Portland, staying in Bellevue, or swapping clean streets for smelly ones and heading over to Seattle. The only ones that sparked my interest were either to stay here, or move along with her.

So naturally, I've been thinking about this non-stop. And you know what conclusion I've come to?

I need to stop.

Let GOD take control, cause guess what? It's not up to me.

Since that's occurred in my little brain, I've thought that if I make steps both ways, He's bound to shut down some opportunities and open others.

I would love your prayers in this matter, and any words of encouragement in either direction (or just in general) are absolutely welcome.


Well, it's not the most boring thing that's been on the internet, but it's my life.

And I'm gonna live it.